Conflicts

Conflicts got 2 kinds, 1 named self while another named as inter.

I'm having lots of it in the name of self conflict recently, greatly.
I love my job, sincerely, its been my dream since I merely speaks any language, yet reality force me to think how should i continue it. My master told everyone, except me, that he wished to retain me. Yet, do i really wish to be retained? M i good enough to explore the huge world myself? Do i still want to continue it as it was?

I told my fren, 5 years of studying, 23 years of dreaming about justice and courage; ended up i'm more like working for money. I always tell the frens around me, life is short, pursue somethg meaningful, not mere monetary. Yet, working now left me no idea of my own ideology. M i doing somethg i like? Yes. Are you working for justice? No. This is the major part of my conflict i believe.

I sincerely believe that i owed a duty to serve my master as to repay the faith and knowledge he had gave me. But, at the same time, i found lost in the things i'm doing daily.

Argh...